busy day!

-finish cleaning house
-showings from 1015-1130
-start cooking
-friends!

no church today, though! :(

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ended up cancelling cooking. yury was sick. just erin and amy. we decided to make it an outing. liberty state park, looked at houses, then bowling/bbq/music even at the barrow mansion. fun!

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taken from Reyna's fb wall post...

"if you don't call me all day...when you don't text me all day, i understand. when i stop loving you, i hope you understand"

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eyes wide open,

and cautiously straddling the fence

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i'd love to...

take on an extreme comedy show and laugh 'til my side hurts.

even by myself...i'd do it!

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quality time with Jen and kids

always great times. love them!

diet...day 6

breakfast - fruit & cottage cheese
merienda - filipino sugar bread (not good)
lunch - kare kare with rice
snacks - tons of chocolate

seeing Jen tonight. will more than likely involve wine. :/

there was a time when...

i would get so bent out of shape when i don't hear from him or he doesn't return a text right away. he's at the MLS & All Star soccer game with the Aussies. he's not called.

am i more mature, or do i just GET him now?

i don't doubt he loves me. oh,the.man.loves.me! he bought me a fucking car! he's been controlling his drinking, and he's been really, really sweet.

>>>but what to do about the drinking?<<<

we both have our own demons. we have this co-dependency with each other.

this time, i don't feel neglected or disrespected or lonely or unwanted.

it's been positive.

but there are still issues.

yet still i'm cautiously optimistic...

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diet day 5

not good. not.good!

started with danishes...2 of them!
salad from A&P
then TONS of chocolate!
and of course, a drink in the evening.

what can i do to make up for all of that?

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those immature little tantrums from an old man

i remember! tells me i made the right decision not to have wasted the time "talking" last Sunday.

be gone!

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my punishment...

he's no longer a fan! awwwww..............for the upteenth time!

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diet...day 4

breakfast - fruit & cottage cheese
snack - white cheddar popcorn 290 calories
lunch - spinach salad with fish
snack - kitkat (small guy)

diet...day 5...well, today is a girlie day---pms! so it might be excusable that i TOTALLY cheated!
breakfast - fruit & cottage cheese
snack - white cheddar popcorn 290 calories, 4 kitkats & 2 sneakers (snack sizes)
but no dinner - just a drink
early to bed...cramps...didn't sleep well. woke up at 11 & couldn't sleep again until around 2a

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taken from a facebook friend's wall post...

"before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes" ~William Gibson

that should be the first thing on the "am i depressed" checklist.

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day 3 continued...

afternoon merienda - unos with hazel. spinach salad with watermelon & blueberries, piece of bread & wildberry lemonade.

at least it was a salad!

dinner - ended up cooking. hawaiian pork chops & spinach salad. kinda healthy. at least it wasn't korean with rice!

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diet...day 3

finishing off day 1...she ended up eating brunswick salad w/ chicken at white star

day 2 - was in LI picking up the car.
-breakfast - nothing
-merienda - chicken on a skewer from NY street vendor
-dinner - salad; salmon sashimi

day 3
-breakfast - fruit and cottage cheese
it's only 1015a - let's see if i can stay disciplined for the rest of the day

didn't make it to church

9a - list appt 69 clendenny
1030 - alex buyer
1230 - orit & aharon

maybe i can be done by 230 an relax for the rest of the day.

oh ye...GOT MY CAR and he's uber sexyyyyy!

was fucken hot today!

diet, day 1 - so, let's see if writing it down will help.

breakfast: fruit & cottage cheese
midday merienda: fruit & cottage cheese
lunch: cobb salad (ate the whole thing!)
dinner: ? it's only 8p...well, anything later is probably too late for my own good. calories will most likely come from alcohol :/

better than kitkats and bagels and filipino food....i think!

baby steps...

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if i were to be honest with myself...

i don't think i'm gonna like it.

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quietly celebrating

back on!

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never been so excited to get a car...

that's because this one is a gift! and is fully paid for!

nothing makes a girl feel more special...and from someone who i care very much about and love very much!

happyyyy!

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found my new car!

2009 Volkswagen CC - thank you, Maja!

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it has been an amazing summer so far...

having the time of my life.

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Nancy's Birthday Visit 071711

Party with Marty 071211

sleepy

so my suspicions were correct...

"can i tell him you are my girlfriend?"

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more people i love...

Maja's party was off.the.hook!

words of the wise

"just figure out how much it costs you everytime you take the day off" ~dale archdekin

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needs to get off her ass

and finish her to do list.

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overheard...

"she's not only my gf, she's also someone i have a huge amount of respect for..."

really?

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success!

she is now tethering her computer to her cell.

or the other way around.

schweeet.

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