at breakfast for Top Producers 042112 - with Jimmy

i'm finding myself getting overly competitive,

and i need to relaxxx.

reached out and tried to touch Erin.

i thing they're out of town.  call when straight to voicemail.

ahhhh!

i can't even go 2 days without breaking my reach-out-and-touch-someone-daily promise!

today, the priority reverted to work...again.   :/

and it's sunday...i should have gone to church and taken it easy.

early to work tomorrow.  i'm training a new girl whom i hope will work out!  she works at the A.  and if this craps out, it could affect my groove there.  eeeeeei!

qt time w/ Gracita

at ja ga reggae festival in Galveston, TX - April visit 2012

wtf

today...or YESTERDAY, rather, i started work at 1030a until 2a THE FOLLOWING MORNING!

WTF

brought Roger along to shadow me until my last appointment at 230p...prepared keys for Agents showing my new rental on Newark Ave...then made myself available for Vera's 4p appointment - which never happened!  buyer skunked me!

focused on prioritizing my workload!  it took a while, i was overwhelmed and did a lot of shuffling papers until i got in gear and had momentum going.

for a second i considered going out for drinks around 10p...changed my mind and kept working instead.

now at home...it's after 2am.

still didn't get everything i wanted to do, done...ugh!

i did stick with the reach-out-and-touch-someone plan...talked to Mom.

why did i book appointments today?

gonna miss this...and Gerald is performing! 

boo!



i miss my friends...

13-14 hour days...everyday.

my back and neck hurt.

mom, ayreen, mel.

jen, last time i saw her, she hardly looked pregnant...and she's having her baby in a couple of weeks!

dulce.

roger.

let, bel, aida, dolly and the kids.

yury, erin & alexei..

guitar.

working out...(shockingly, low on the priority list!)

i don't want to lose touch and grow apart from my loved ones.  friends and family are what matter...not the idea of making MORE money!

***my life doesn't change much, no matter how many deals i'm closing***

so what's the point?

i will work harder to stay in touch and connected with people. i will reach out to people more...I WILL CALL 1 PERSON PER DAY.

hazel-i see probably more than anybody, besides maja.  grace, i talk to, more than anybody (the past month).

but mostly, other than clients and coworkers, i'm not seeing or talking to most of my dear friends.

i haven't had time!

ye, that's how screwed up my priorities are.

got.to.change.priorities.

April 2012 Visit to TX

kickin ass where it counts!

my CC kicked his Yaris ass!

ye...boo!

oh shit...

i need to file for extension...TODAY!

this can't be good...

not sleeping well without having to take anything lately.

could it be that i'm nervous about seeing my sister for the 1st time in eons?

or is all this talk about relationships and conflicts forcing me to consider my own situation?

whew!

for a minute there, i thought i mistakenly booked myself out of New York!

wishes...

wishing maja peace in peru.

wishing my sister peace, period.

i'm more and more convinced...

it's not that women are SOOOO complicated,

men are just SIMPLE...period!

the things women & men have in common are what attracted them to each other...what will keep them together requires 3 key ingredients:
   -be their #1 fan
   -stroke their ego
   -give them sex!

you got a home run!

sigh...relationships...

wish i had...

a margarita machine at home.

wtf?

bought this from the thrift store the other day....now i'm thinking....WHYYYYY?  

insight into the mind

sometimes we confuse "personality" with someone's "nature".

just because someone might be aloof, doesn't mean the person isn't a loving, caring and sensitive individual...

4/6 affirmations and infinitesimal devotions

- i'm a doer
- i get things DONE
- i'm on top of everything
- i'm fast

4/4 affirmations & infinitesimal devotions

- i am healthy and strong

- i drink enough water daily

- i will make money today!



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becoming a better person

1.  infinitesimal changes - improve, change, add, delete, edit something - everyday

2.  always leave people with the impression of kindness, never be unkind or disrespectful, EVEN to service people who you may not feel are not doing their job effectively! 

3.  try affirmations outloud and often!

4/3/12 - today's affirmations:  think thin!  i love to exercise and make my body feel and look good!  i am kind to everyone!  i will get a listing appointment and put a deal together!

DESIDERATA

Go placidly amidst the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

in the most trying times,

if you don't give your love the love & support they need, then who will?

but when is it a matter of embracing the short 'minus' list, or just settling? or simply even being foolish?