doing great w/ the BBP!

...now if i could just lay off the margaritasszzz

no campin today...

on account of the heavy rain this morning.

kicked my own ass at home instead.

sleeping much better these days...

haven't had to take anything before going to bed.

that's good!

you and me - together...

we could have moved mountains!

stalker stats!

guitar!

sunday w gigi

FilAm Fest at Lincoln Park

assistant round 1.1

well there was round 1,

then round 2,

then round 1...again.

but that didn't last long!  (*&a$Q#(^!%^#
so i guess that makes it back to square 1.3  >:/

pants party

give me strength

sometimes, i don't want to be here.

been awake since 430a.  tired.

snooki and jwoww show

i checked out the show just to see how jersey city was portrayed and it was...painfully.mind.numbing.  i don't understand how they could command 30 minutes of air time and all the publicity.

so blessed!

soooooowwww....

i'm not depressed.

one iota.

just a little tired.  and with a sore right thigh.

that's about it.

bench standard was pretty high

minus the drinking part. 

kind'a hard to measure up.  everyone else paling in comparison.

BBP Chronicles continued...

-learned how to jump rope today!  apparently harder than it looks when you're uncoordinated!

-trying almond milk "silk"

let's see how it goez...

update and note to self:  almond milk isn't any better!

brazilian barbeque

brazilian by association!  <3

and if i didn't know any better...

i'd say i'm seeing a little more swagger in those steppps!

tru'nuff!

roger

new artwork on the hood of my car

let's play the guess-the-message game.

the work of some hater, no doubt.  i feel sorry for the person.

ironic indeed

finished week 3 of bootcamp!

now...how to get rid of back fat roll?!

yup! all good!

ayreen bought a brand new guitar and she's been playing and practicing.  she's gonna be good!  i can't wait to jam with her!

on the other hand, gerald never even got to see that I learn really quickly and how fun it is to jam together, because he never made the time or have patience to play together.

ye, true story.

and i really believed that was love.

...i'm a jeckasss.

grace and alan are back together and getting along and going to the library and stuff.  pretty fucken amazing, considering they were kinda lookin like they were going to the crapper there for a 2nd.  THAT'S LOVE.  i'm happy for them.

mel and family - i see them on fb...they're also great.

everything is all good, actually!

*happy*

blessed and grateful!

it has to be the combination of affirmations, work out and being grateful.

not a bit fazed.

and even beforehand, i wasn't inclined to commit or plan any more trips.

i'm really liking this.

at some point, somethings gotta stick!

lol

i listen to all these self-empowerment audioclips, and affirmations on repeat and such...

"i only attract relationships that are good for me, blah, blah..."

i think i'm finally giving the universe the chance to give me what i want this time!

wtf has been wrong with me?

5 years?! 

geeez!

the dreaded "before"

the bootcamp isn't just about getting healthy, mind you.

she was getting...dare i say....

CHUNKFUL!

howz all goin?

good appetite?  check

sleep unaffected?  check

looks like this kid is going to be alright!

week 3 of bootcamp!

doing it like a rockstarrr!

keeping the infinitesimal positive changes coming!

p.s.  i don't know any champion who drinks excessively. 

you would think

i would know better at this age.

i'm so stupid.

saturday night...

my place.

just me and my guitar.

and a drink and the SW.

didn't even faze me.

it's all grand!

excessive drinking?

not sexy!

in fact, it's really quite a turn off.

this is new!

no *sad face*

heart feels...normal

not ready to bawl

i like it!

enabler,

no more!

major fail!

bloody overslept!

changed my alarm to 6a yesterday and forgot to change it back for bootcamp today!
made up for it w/ 30m of pilates and 30m of cardio.

didn't sleep well last night.  was feeling bad opening my mouth to S.  i have trust issues w/ peoples m/o.

YUP!

you can trick me into thinking lemonade and tequila is actually a margarita!

2nd week of bootcamp!

endurance is improving, but i feel like i pulled something!  behind my left thigh and my right hip.  rrrrr.

need to get better with my diet though.  need to leave margaritas alone!

ME time!

pilates

walk in the park

book (an ADD-friendly book)

guitar!

life is good!

guess she's back to you-only-exist-when-i-need-you-mode

i texted her yesterday to tell her i love her and she never responded back.  and she doesn't keep me on the phone for hours anymore.

smh...

that's Gracita!

if i have to hear it one more time!! >:/

"i've been doing this x years!"

f*n more reason to be ashamed you don't know shit.

bootcamp doesn't get any better than this!

bootcamp doesn't get any better than this!