i love it when...

i'm just coming back from break and the 1st thing i do is line up 3 deals to close....yheeeeh!

at first, i started to feel guilty about taking another trip (contemplated exit strategies) and then immediately found a solution to still make it work.
-take less days!

i just need to kick more ass when i'm not galavanting all over the place!

ye, why the f*ck not...

costa rica treat...

i deserve it!



oh, and this one!

next, please!

Montauk, NY with Yury and Erin...

yheeeeh!

she's back bitches!

no monday morning blues that jcfbootcamp can't cure.

easy on the junk food....you got a couple of beach days coming up...

and then bumbershoot!

yeahhhhh!

MAG 2012 - the drive

MAG 2012 - music

MAG 2012 - camp grounds

so, i had to do it...

drive 12 miles away just to get cell service!

26 voice mails!  good thing nothing was earth shattering.

had to change my voice mail message and tell on myself.  :P

first time in forever that i've not had to talk on the phone in going on 3 days now.

sooo worth it and i think i can do this again real soon!

<3

um, ye....

i don't remember telling you i was going to "camp"....

awesome place!

i'm surrounded by hippies, it seems.

i imagined a camp full of people like me...eager, newbies...maybe with *some* experience....but noooooo...people have like...20+years of experience w/ and multiple instruments!

-guitar
-banjo
-ukelele
-mandolin
-violin (fiddle)
-flute
-dulcimer

and shape note and harmony singing!

if people weren't so nice, i would feel totally intimidated!

i could do this all day lonnnggg...

feels good to be here...

the compound is small and intimate, next to St. Regis Lake,

surprised though...there are a lot of seniors, then me, and then a couple of very young guys.

i'm the only non-white person.

but it's great to be so relaxed, no fuzz, no make up, no bra!  haha.

i never knew what a mountain dulcimer was.

and found out fiddle and violin are the same!

who knew?

dorms are the worst!  next time, i'm booking myself into a bed and breakfast in town!

okay, ya...sooo now we're doing the hokey pokey

and i see that the universe has been listening!

yes, please!  and please don't stop until we get it jusssst riiight!

thank you!

could be much better...

if i could just leave...margaritas, potato chips, rice, ice cream, biscuits and gravy...bleh, bleh, and so forth... alone!

tsk tsk tsk...

married boys.

tempting...but i happen to know and respect....ummm...YOUR WIFE!

desktop computer crashed

lovely...fuckkk meee.

Mountain Arts Gathering - Music Camp

"A week full of fun, fellowship, and great music-making.  The Gathering offers workshops, jams, performances, and an easy sense of community, all in a clean, intimate setting overlooking Lower St. Regis Lake and St. Regis Mountain."

Fun! 

It would mean I won't be able to hang out w/ Roger this weekend and also skip camp for a week...boo! 

But I reaalllyyy need to get awayyy!

'bout time you booked that trip!

Family and Fun for Labor Day!

from 13 to 30 in 3 months.

not good!

i need to get my ass in gear.

magellanhealth.com

looking into seeing somebody.

i'm not blue, but something is off.

my motivation to work is definitely down and i need to shake it off.

yep...2 tries!

still no..."so, what's your trajectory"?

bootcamp and morning strumming out of the way...

now, i wanna go back to sleep!

i really should go to bed earlier!

aside from my name, what car i drive and the fact that i'm a realtor,

what else do you know about me?

i've opened up some kind of flood gate

universe:  what are you telling me?

i get confused.

i either tend to relax and ignore red flags.

or do the opposite...just be really, really guarded.

or i let it get the best of me. 

i already know the answer to my most troubling question.

weak.

soy milk

first try today.

didn't hate it as i thought i would.

was almost tempted to stay in bed and skip bootcamp this morning...

glad i forced myself out of bed.

worked off that ice cream and rice and beans yesterday!

cansado...

estoy muy cansado.

zzzzzzzzzzz

f meee

had wicked cramps yesterday that brought me home by 4p and i was asleep by 8p.

now i've been up since 317a and can't go back to sleep.\

lovely!  my day is going to be a tired one tomorrow.

why am i such a magnet for men w/ dreads?

:/

buh bye!

days of trying to win your favor?

ovahhh!

7/7/7

5 years and 1 day ago, i thought i had finally met the man of my dreams.

it was 5 years of thinking and tricking and fooling myself...

and feeling sorry for him.

today, we don't even speak to each other.

true love, it turns out, t'was not.

and it's the day of his born and i'm not compelled to extend happy wishes.

forgiving and forgetting isn't for the humanhearted in me...at least not today.

gina!

"Driven to Distraction"

2 common myths about ADD: (a) that it is an issue only for children; and (b) that ADD corresponds simply to limited intelligence or limited self-discipline.

"Yes, having ADD can have disadvantages, but there are also benefits to having it, such as high energy, intuitiveness, creativity and enthusiasm."

but sometimes i seem more like 'driven to destruction'.

positive distractions

this time, it's different.

something must've finally clicked.

but saturdays are still a little tough.

guess you can call it a D

not even 1 question about me though.

are you even interested?  or just awkward?

tan lines and progressss

i ate way too much crap today.

beach!

 

beach tomorrow!

just girls.

fuck the boys.

just got a call from a "503" area code...

asking if I'd like to refill my "diazepam" prescription (generic for Valium).

wtf?

so random.

so weird!

one day i'll appreciate the video that goes with that!

dinner with michael

obamacare

cried like a baby while showering today.

i can't believe how insensitive people are...to compare humanity to....lower sales??? 

mind boggling!  and i didn't realize how much it would affect me.  i was litterally bawling in the shower.

i see people in a different light now.